*the team just chilling after a call* Eddie: man, id love to have buck tied up to a chair Hen: Chimney: Buck: Ravi: Hen: excuse me Eddie: i said what i said Buck: *blushes*
Going absolutely feral thinking about Bucks mom saying ‘you think you’re indestructible, but your not’ in Buck Begins because she fundamentally doesn’t understand why Buck is so reckless. He doesn’t think he’s indestructible - he thinks he’s disposable. He thinks no one would care if he wasn’t around anymore because his parents always just looked through him instead of seeing him.
And holding that up next to Eddie saying 'you think you’re expendable, but you’re not’ in Survivors because Eddie does understand why Buck is so reckless. And it isn’t because he thinks he’s indestructible, it’s because he thinks he’s disposable. He thinks that everyone else is more important than him because no one has never made him their priority.
Just… Eddie knowing Buck. Eddie seeing Buck. Eddie needing Buck to understand that he isn’t expendable because he has a family that loves him and need him to remember that he matters too.
no but eddie is so !!! he baby trapped buck basically!!! and!!! he TRICKED him into a date (poker date) and he just! he’s so smart actually and so in love. mastermind is his song. he is playing that white boy like a fiddle
it got brushed over because of everything else that was happening in the scene but eddie telling buck “you don’t have to be anything for anybody” is one of the most devoted protective lines they’ve ever said to each other or anyone else and I need it to be talked about more
thinking about how absolutely devastating the idea of Buck fell too soon and Eddie fell too late (or vice versa) is.
Buck having a giant crush Eddie and having to watch him try to rebuild is marriage because what is he going to do, pull a Meredith Gray and say ‘pick me, choose me, love me’? That’s Christopher’s mother, that’s Eddie’s high school sweetheart, that’s Eddie’s wife.
Buck getting a girlfriend and trying to move on, Buck moving on and being so grateful for his friendship with Eddie. Buck shoving down any and all romantic feelings for Eddie because romance is fleeting but this family that they’ve chosen is forever.
Eddie bleeding out on the ground and realizing that 'oh shit, i love him’ only to wake up and realize it’s too late, Buck’s with Taylor now and he looks happy. And Eddie’s still with Ana, he can try to make that work. He can be happy for Buck, he can.
Eddie standing in the cemetery and having to hear Buck say a woman he just met sees him better than he sees himself. Eddie clenching his fists and swallowing the pain because he just wants Buck to be happy. He wants Buck to have everything he wants, and if that’s Natalia then Eddie can figure out how to move on.
Buck being happy but feeling like something is missing, something he can’t quite name.
Eddie actually trying on dates because he knows he needs to move on. He’s never seen Buck like this in a relationship and he has a feeling this is it for Buck, so Eddie needs to get over him because he’s going to have to be his best man.
Buck proposing and not understanding the knot in his stomach when Eddie brings his new-ish boyfriend to the engagement party.
Eddie planning the bachelor party and having to keep a happy face on the entire time even though he’s still not over Buck, not totally.
Buck not knowing why his stomach twists whenever he sees Eddie and Mateo together because he got over his crush on Eddie years ago - he got over it before it could really bloom into something real. He did. He knows he did.
Just, both of them having happy relationships that they really put themselves into, but there’s always something lingering in the darkest corners of their hearts, something they can’t let themselves look at because it’ll hurt too much. Because they both know they just got the timing wrong and it’s too late.
